HHHMMMMM

Yes I am crying...its what happens when you are sad.

WATCHFUL FROM ABOVE...FOR JEAN

When you lose a friend the end seems to be all there is left of them.

There is a sickness in the pit of your gut,

A sadness behind your eyes,

Splinters of your heart spread out in front of you.

Wandering around in a haze of amazement,

This should not have happened,

Not to one of the nicest people you know,

But it has...

There is no taking it back.

Memories are what is left.

On this dark and rain felt day,

The memories I have bring the sun into my world,

A special warmth,

A smile.

So many questions without answers though...

Starting with the most imortant,

Why?

I will miss you,

No one can replace the joy you have brought into the lives of others...

The hard work that you have proudly and relentlessly done,

No one can replace you.

You are no longer in pain,

Joined with your God up high,

Looking down...

Please stay with me,

Watch me,

Keep me with you.

Through My Eyes

I see your past,

I feel the pain,

Take it all as lessons taught,

It's the only way to keep sane.

Touched by your hope,

I long to remove your fear,

Seeing you express and cope,

Not reluctant to shed a tear.

True feelings are powerful,

Most afraid to share,

I see you boldly verbalizing,

To the ignorant and confined,

They had better beware.

With lack of release there is no hope,

Only spaces filled with the weak.

I see you strong,

Unafraid to speak.

PRESUMPTIONS

My sense of urgency is passion reaching...

To the sky, the moon, to you.

Nights spent 'dreaming' (finally) fulfill my soul,

But only for a moment.

Am I greedy to want more,

To embrace what is you?

A simple moment etched in time,

Will forever be chiseled with-in my heart.

Presumptuous....maybe.

Worth it....definitely! 

We complement each other,

The moon and stars.

Hopefully after more time,

Happily ever after will be ours. 

HAHA

Look mon!! Its 'de plane'!
Hell no! I am not insane!
Full of laughter, joy and spunk,
Tired of feeling like I am in a funk!
So here, here, to happiness and fare!
If you do not like it....I frankly don't care! 
                       HAHAHAHA

UNBROKEN

The sound of your tender voice fills my heart with passion,

A lust, a want, a drive.

The heat coursing through my veins,

(Though not surprised..)

It drives me insane.

Just to lay and hear your words,

Your feelings, your thoughts, your 'you',

Fills me with the honest knowledge...

Open, caring, a 'human true'.

To be able to walk in your shoes,

To feel what you do,

Crawl inside you and take the sadness away.

Look forward to an unbroken heart....

Someday.

Faery Tail

Senseless thoughts,

Spinning

Winding

Through my exhausted mind.

Time being wasted

Squandered

Gone

The things I have left behind.

My heart grows cold

Tired

Weak

The search for love has grown old.

I feel as though my soul I now must confine

Restraining

Hiding

Protecting it til the end of time.

Lock it down with a golden key

Safe

Secure

Only my prince can free my heart and me.

The

Demanding

 I cannot seem to wrap my head around the 'whys' and reasoning's to this so-called life I have been given.

Always have I been the obedient and caring soul,

Full of laughter and warmth.

Now I question what seems to be everything,

From my sensual and sensitive being,

To just plain old 'WHY'.

Somewhere buried deep with-in, I know this is not me,

I just want an inkling of some sort of answer,

A hint would suffice.

I give, yet I expect nothing in return...

I love, without bounds...

I obey, not knowing what will be expected....

Now I am demanding!!

I want the answers!!

Do not deny me!

I have done everything in life selflessly,

Owning up to my mistakes,

Never asking...

...Until now.

WHY?

FEAR

I feel the bitterness approaching,

nipping 

tugging

probing

The power flickers,

only for a second..

a surge

then a long moment

Darkness is forthcoming,

bleak

gray

black

Becoming weak

powerless

following

enslaved

Walking into the abyss

alone

frightened

soulless 

Pondering how this came to be..

I swore this would never happen,

Not to me.

Not again.

Yet here I am.

ENGULFED

Find me

Where are you?

Where am I?

Come find me,

Can you hear my cries?

The voice in the dark, no, its not in your head,

Follow it, it's me

Can you hear what I have said?

I need you,

I want you,

I long for more time.

A connection,

Was it real or just in my mind?

Am i curled up in my delusions,

Only time will tell...

Have I jumped to conclusions,

Help me out of this hell.

I am calling to you,

Come save me...